Merry Xmas and Happy New Year

Hi Everyone

thankyou to all of you that left a comment on my last post about my birthday. I am over it for now but I have warned DH that he has to make a better effort next time. I know he has been busy but he needs to think of these things in advance.

Anyway what has been happening around here.

Taylah has finished school and won the Sport award at the end of year presentation. She was so happy with herself and so was I. I still didn't know why she got it as every friday morning before sport she would tell me how much she hated it. but the teacher advised me that she had made such a big improvement that is why she got it.
Lots of things going on with Taylah at the moment and I am thinking of going to the GP to get a referral to a psychologist as she is just crying all the time, sad and attention seeking. So much so that the teacher made a comment on her school report about how she has small medical problems that she thinks are large and has been using this as attention seeking behaviour. She still has separation anxiety especially when going to school and I asked her last night why she doesn't want mummy to leave and her reply was because I don't want anyone to be mean to me. She also told me that she is scared of meeting new people, scared of sleeping in her room and scared that I will not pick her up after school. This of course has never happened. So I am feeling a bit heartbroken about this and feel that I need to do something for her.

Maddison finished daycare on Wednesday and I thought that I would be really teary but there were no tears. I think this is because these girls are my friends as well and I will still see them and also some of them are now scrapbookers thanks to me. She wasn't sad at all and was actually cheering that she didn't have to go anymore. I don't think she really realises that she will have to go to school 5 days per week. She is going to Young Starters at her sisters school so I am hoping that I don't have the same separation problems with her.

They are so excited about christmas and cannot wait till santa comes. Tomorrow night DH and I are taking them to the movies for a family outing to see Santa Clause 3 and then dinner. I am really looking forward to some downtime over the next couple of days.

DH has been working his little butt off. Being a courier this is the busiest time of the year and I have even worked 4 days this week and a couple last week delivering parcels just to help him out. I wouldn't mind doing this a couple of days per week but we will have to see what happens in the new year.

I have also applied for an approval number with the department of education to get some casual work in the schools. Taylah's principal gave me a letter to send with the application and hoped that he would be able to provide me with some either admin or teachers aide work next year. I am keeping my fingers crossed.

UPDATE FROM THE DIVAS SHOP

Well it is all happening with the website. As you maybe aware I have been having major behind the scenes problems with the website. I seems that ever since I took over the site it has been very frustrating trying to iron out the problems. I feel like I have spent most of this year worrying about why this doesn't work and that doesn't work and why this person wants to charge me like a wounded bull or that person doesn't want to even help me. Instead of concentrating on the business side of the website and growing it and the community.

So I am having a new site built that hopefully will be up and running by the end of January 2007.

I hope to bring some new and exciting things to Scrapbook Divas. Cybercrops, online classes, loyalty shopper program, competitions and the most exciting DIVAS DESIGN TEAM.

I want to make my website the best in town and hope you will help me make this come true.

I just wanted to leave you a canvas that my 10 year old niece did with some stuff she got from me. She really is becoming the scrapbooker.

So Merry Christmas to everyone and a Happy New Year and may 2007 be the year of the DIVA.

Michelle

Happy Birthday To Me

Just a quick post.

It's my party and I'll cry if I want to. My Birthday today 40 something will do. DH went to sydney to take DD and DGD(granddaugther) to catch the train to go home to Batemans Bay. Thanks for spending my birthday with me and your other children. Not happy Jan. Daycare xmas party this arvo so he better get back.

Have spent the morning putting up the tree and the girls did a beautiful job and cleaning the scrap shed and my mum and dad paid me a visit.

have a good week.

Edited at 9.32pm

Does anyone ever feel like no one cares about their birthday. especially their husband and their children. My husband has not set a very good example for his children. I thought that birthdays were suppose to be special. I don't know I just feel unappreciated today. Why is it that I still have to do everything even on my birthday as well as get out the cake and candles. I was really lucky to get that. I am going to change my birthday to the 10th June from now on as I am sick and tired of hearing "I don't have time to get you anything", "I am too busy at work", I have to do this I have to do that, it is too close to xmas. I am done with it all and I have hardly spoken to my husband today who started off our morning with me hearing the alarm go off and asking him was he awake. Of course I'm awake what do you reckon. Well sorry for asking. Happy Birthday you cranky bitch. and that has been how it has gone all day. I still even had to decide about dinner. got the kids macca's but didn't have any chicken ceasar rolls, so I had to come home and get a frozen meal out the fridge and eat by myself.
he put up the xmas lights and is now probably going to go to bed cause he is tired from his big day driving to sydney and back. poor thing. Yes I am not happy and very sad as I feel that your birthday should be special and you should at least do something special on the day or spend it with the people you love instead of arguing or fighting, even our anniversay of 15 years has passed by without us doing anything as a couple. doesn't say much for our relationship at the moment and quiet frankly I am sick of this at this time of the year. I always say I am going to be more organised and I never am. We are all too busy to even notice each other or sit down and have some quiet time together. That makes me really sad. I read today on Janelle Winds blog this quote: "Only focus on today what you need to have done for tomorrow".

Update at the Divas Shop

Warning long post ahead.

So much going on at this time of the year that it is hard to keep up and I know I have been a bad blogger.

Arrived at the Shop this week are some new Christmas products from Doodlebug, Making Memories, 3 Bugs in a Rug, Basic Grey just to name a few. So come and check it out here in the Christmas Shop.

I also received the new Chatterbox doodling Genies. How popular were those. I loaded them (30 of them) to the website at lunchtime and a couple of hours later they were all sold out. I am hoping to get another lot before Christmas.

We now have the messageboard running much better now with a whole new group of categories so come and join in our little friendly community.

We are experiencing some problems behind the scenes with the website and the gallery is not operating as it should and at the moment you are unable to upload any pictures.

The problems have led to a decision to change to a new shopping cart that will hopeful make the website operate more smoothly. It is very frustrating and has been very upsetting for me and trying to work out what to do. I have been trying to get this right ever since I took the site over nearly 12 months ago and it just seems to be ongoing all the time and I am not able to concentrate on running the business and get it going. All my time has been spent stressing out about what is going to happen next and what is going to fall over. My programmer Greg has just been fantastic. I don't know how long this will take but there will be no disruption to shopping on the site except for a couple of days when the site will be down while we switch everything over. If it wasn't for Greg I don't know what I would have done. It is so hard to get good help sometimes.

On the home front Taylah's behaviour has been not very good lately and mummy has not been very nice in trying to control it either. She has not been sleeping properly so therefore is cranking and tired and so is mummy. some nights I have been getting up 3 & 4 times with different ailments. This is sore, that is sore, I have pains in the stomach, I am itchy,I have sore ankles. I don't know whether it is attention seeking or what it is, but I am just so over it and tired. I have had her to the doctors and they can't find anything. I must admit she has not been well this year, so her immune system would be really low. Not only will she not stay in bed she doesn't want to go to bed when she is told and then is going to sleep late and the vicious cycle keeps going. As a matter of fact she doesn't want to do anything she is told at the moment. she even gets up in the morning and there is always something wrong with her. But she got an award today at school for using good listening skills. obviously she leaves them at school for when she comes home. she just told me "you are so stupid because you never let us doing anything" because I will not let her and her sister go out the front to play when they have a perfectly good backyard. They always won't to go out the front and play, but I have tried to explain about the traffic and cars and supervision and stranger danger. She won't go to time out just yells and rants and raves. Even though last night we had a talk and I said that if she went to time out for 5 mins it would be all over and done with. And she said yes she would do that. But of course when it came this afternoon to go to time out for misbehaving, she ranted and raved. I don't know what to do with her anymore and she lacks in self esteem and self confidence and never seems happy and I am getting concerned. Going to talk to her teacher on Thursday about next year and I don't want her in the same class as the two girls that she is currently friends with. They have this "cool girls team" going and she gets told who she can play with and if she doesn't play with them she is not in the team. Other things have been said as well that concern me and I think this is also affecting Taylah as she is a follower and will be lead by whoever to do whatever. she is so sensitive and easily gets upset and stressed. She is scared of meeting new people as well. I call her "snag" sensitive new age girl. So I need to really work on my parenting skills and my attitude and be more positive with her.

Anyway tomorrow my DH's 19year old daughter and 11month old granddaughter are arriving for a couple of days. My DH does not see much of his daughter as she lives in Batemans Bay and I have not seen the new grandaughter. I hear you laughing and stop calling me granny. I am too young to be a grandmother. So this will be a learning experience for all of us.

Maddison's graduation from daycare is tomorrow night and I am sure there are going to be lots of tears shed as our babies are off to school next year. in fact 8 weeks tomorrow and they will be heading off to the big wide world. My girlfriend Julie's family and my family have bought a bench seat to go in one of the playgrounds at daycare and we are going to have a plaque with our girls names put on it so that they will remember us.

yesterday I did my first deliveries with Dh and got absolutely saturated but I enjoyed it.

tomorrow I am off to groups and have lots of reading to do about the new shopping cart and get the house tidy for our visitors.

Friday I am hoping to go to Scrappy Chic at Rathmines for the lovely Cindy's last crop night before they sell the shop. Looking forward to that.

Saturday my girlfriend, hubby and kids are coming up for a visit from sydney. so that will be nice.

Sunday is my birthday, warners bay markets (maybe) and in the afternoon the daycare xmas party where the kids will get to see santa and dance the afternoon away.

busy busy.

have a good week and if you are still reading this I am sorry about the long and full on post.

Cheers

Michelle